Best Monday so far
I awoke at around 7:30am, groggy. Ordinarily I would pull myself out of bed and face the day bravely, plenty things to do; the Ports of Lyttleton need saving, after all. Then I rolled over and went back to sleep. I have an excuse, I am sick with a cold and I need a little R&R. At 10:11am, my boss Irene called me to see how I was doing. “Oh, you sound really bad still” she exclaimed encouragingly.
I lounged languidly for a little then showered and started getting dressed. You see, I had student presentations to attend at 1pm and I needed to sign something at work.
Anyway, you don’t need to know about that stuff. What you do need to know is at around 2:30pm, I was driving home, back South over the harbour bridge, a little tired still, from my sickness, quite hungry since I hadn’t yet eaten. Perhaps I’d warm up some leftover pizza for lunch. I should go get my haircut and maybe do the banking for church while I was there. I still hadn’t completed last week’s podcast and, oh, I should post those letters soon…
I looked out at the boats in the harbour as I crossed the bridge. It was a beautiful spring day.
“Screw it”
I stopped off at the petrol station. The lady there kindly filled my tank for me and I got a copy of the newspaper. I almost never read the newspaper.
I drove down to Mission Bay. One of the prettiest spots on Auckland’s waterfront, and went to one of my favourite restaurant chains (Mecca) for lunch. I sat there, with my Vodka and lemonade, my newspaper and my Cajun chicken for over an hour, just watching passersby, at the beautiful scenery. At 4pm I went to see a movie (Eye in the Sky) then got a cup of ice cream (Chocolate & Tiramisu) and walked along the wet-sandy waterline my black work shoes and long pants.
Standing there, listening to the uneven rhythm of the waves rushing up against the shore, I began to realise that all this work I get up to is really in vain if it means I am cooped up inside for the best part of the day and am too tired / stressed out to make effective use of my weekends. All my social commitments are all very well and good, but not if they mean I am constantly shifting from one foot to another. I decided I need to have a real holiday, soon.
And you know? I am starting to feel better already.

October 13th, 2008 at 11:01 pm
When we spoke on the phone this eveing your day seemed so isolated.
But we see from your blog you were happy in your own skin. Nothing like the Mt Wellington woes.
October 14th, 2008 at 12:53 am
Good for you!
Screw it indeed.
October 14th, 2008 at 6:32 am
It sounds to me like you made the right decision. Sometimes we need to say screw it and do what is best for ourselves.
October 17th, 2008 at 8:41 am
Hi Steve
Sometimes you are so busy you forgetting to make time for yourself to rethink, reboost yourself etc… and the best of all just to relax.
Go on a long-deserved holiday and forget about the things you had done, still needs to do or still want to do in the future.
Come back refueled, relaxed, refocusing and wanting to go on with life again.
Remember DONT take TOO many THINGS “on BOARD” what will just “BURN you OUT” in the END again, that’s not worth it.
You need to look after yourself and health NOW, especially when you single. If you dont do it, you dont have the privilage of someone doing it for you!!!
BE very CAREFULL!!!
LOVE you LOTS!!!
Regards
CornW
October 17th, 2008 at 10:36 pm
Please don’t shout on my blog.
October 22nd, 2008 at 11:38 pm
I am seaching for some idea to write in my blog… somehow come to your blog. best of luck. Eugene